Embracing God’s Plan: Finding Peace and Purpose in Life’s Unexpected Journey

Have you ever asked yourself why my life is the way it is? Why did I go through what I went through? But I did everything the “right” way; why aren’t things working out? Am I being punished?

I sure have many times. Many of you who have been reading my blog for some time may have come across my blog post from a year ago about infertility; if you have not, you can find it here.

Before I move on, I want to thank everyone who reached out after reading that post. I was overwhelmed by the feedback and the love I felt from all of you. I was definitely not expecting that response. Thank you!

So many times, I have tried to figure out why my life is the way it is. I’ve traced the steps to get where I am and tried to imagine what would have happened if I had taken another route. I am known to be a bit of a perfectionist. I like to control everything I can, which is impossible. Have any of you ever played The Sims? I have spent many hours playing that game, and even when I tried to plan my Sims day, I couldn’t execute everything perfectly. So if I can’t control every aspect of my Sims life perfectly, how can I control my own? I can’t.

So why are things the way they are? The answer i have come up with is that God has planned it. I may never understand, but this fact is true. God has allowed me to walk through my life path so that He can be glorified, even if I don’t understand. Looking back at everything that has happened or is currently happening to me, I see God’s sovereignty.

I may not be where I want to be, but I am where I am meant to be. If I had it my way, I’d have a child or two running around. I wouldn’t be working a full-time job. I’d own a home with a yard for my kids to run. I have none of these things, and I am ok; why? Because I can see how the lack of these things opens me up to other opportunities I wouldn’t have. I do not intend to bash anyone who has these things, I want them, but because I don’t have them, I can see the blessing and the freedom God has provided me.

I can participate more in church activities and serve in many ways. I have the time available to learn new skills. I may not be able to up and go wherever I want because I have two dogs, but it is easier to get out of the house than it would be for a parent who needs to pack their child’s bag. Again, those are things I long to have, but in the meantime, while I wait, I will continue to take advantage of what I have and don’t have.

I will continue to help those I can with the free time I am provided. I will emotionally support others who have the same unmet desires as myself. If things had worked out my way, I wouldn’t have the opportunity to relate to other women struggling to have children if I had everything I wanted. Someone once told me I was going through this to help others, and selfishly I replied that that was not what I wanted to do. Now here I am, glad to play out my current role. I will admit that accepting things would not have come without much prayer or surrendering my will to God.

I will not lecture you about accepting God’s will but ask you to seek Him out regarding your circumstances. Pray for peace and understanding; I am sure He will grant it if it is His will. Think about the following verses.

18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

1 Tess 5: 18

5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.

James 1:5

SDG – “Soli Deo Gloria”